Day 6

Well, as of last night I was down 4.5 pounds. Thats about an average of 3/4 of a pound each day. I can't wait to see what happens once I get into the core plan. That starts Monday and is pretty restricted. It will be interesting, but I am really looking forward to awesome results!!! So far I have told my Husband, my Mom, and my Cousin what I am doing. I am nervous about telling everyone else as I don't want to let anyone down. I don't think that will happen with this, even though my husband doesn't think I can do it. Ya know, I am really angry at him. He can be so un-supportive of what I want. He won't eat healthy with me and today he said this is going to be just like my gym memberships, I will try if for a while and then give up. I tried telling him that this is very different. This is going to show results, where the gym membership never did.

Today is going to be a big challenge. We are going to a party at my brother's house for the football game today and there will be lots of food and snacky stuff there. But, I have put together a huge veggi platter and a calorie free dip to go along with it so that I will have something to eat. I have also got some hard boiled eggs and my handy melba toast. I WILL loose this weight. My husband needs to just accept that in 6 months he is going to have a seriously HOT wife!!! LOL.

Day 4

Okay, so I am on Day 4. Day 1 sucked!!!! The rest of the day's so far have been great. I feel good, no side effects to the supplements. I could probably use more sleep, but so far so good. Today is somewhat of a challenge. I am going to the Reba concert with my niece tonight and need to find a chance to eat on the way and do it in a healthy way. We will see what happens. Originally I wasn't going to tell anyone what I was doing, except my husband, but I ended up telling my Mom and my cousin. They are both excited and supportive for me.

Well, we will see how tonight goes and take it from there. Oh, yeah and I have already lost 2.5 pounds ( as of 11/2) WooHoo!

It's been a while

Okay, well I have decided to try something new. I am maxed out at 272 pounds. I am not happy about this at all, but I have decided to put an end to it. I have signed up with a company called Metabolic Research Ctr. Their program is going to work for me! I just know it. I feel very good about this new adventure. Yesterday I went in for my initial consult and decided that I need to loose 102 pounds. That will put me to 170, which I haven't seen in a lot of years. I am very excited! The only people I have told are my Mom and husband. They are both excited for me and I am looking forward to making them proud. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life. I start the diet tomorrow. I am excited, nervous and am really looking forward to feeling better. Tonight I had my "last meal" and I had a McRib from McDonalds. It was good, but I am looking forward to having a new, healthier relationship with food. Basically within 6 months I should have dropped my 102 pounds. Well, wish me luck!

In a funk

I have been in a major funk today! I am just really depressed. My husband is working and in a few weeks I am going to be working with him. I am looking really forward to that, but today I didn't even want to come home. My Dad died this last september and all I can think about is that I wish I could have him back, even if just for a day. I know that isn't possible, but I still want it. Today, that is all I want. Well, anyway...that is how I feel today.

I wonder...

I think I will start using this more as a place to just blog. Right now I am totally pissed off at my husband. Don't get me wrong, I love him, most of the time. But lately he has been a total asshole! Last night he was acting really weird and he was looking at my teeth and proceeded to tell me that my teeth were 3 colors and looked "fucking stupid". Then today he acts like nothing happened and then tonight he supposedly calls my cell phone, which does NOT ring, and when he comes by he pretty much accuses me of lying when I tell him that I didn't have a missed call. Sometimes I really wonder why the hell I ever married him. Sometimes I wonder if anyone would miss me if I were to disappear. I can only think of a few, my cousin/sister, my mom and my son. I guess those 3 will have to be enough for now. Right now I am not very happy, about anything. I'm not sure why. I have felt totally rotten lately and am suspecting that I am having Gall bladder problems, but I'm not sure. Well, I guess that is enough ranting and raving for now.

Back on the Wagon

Well, I am back on the wagon again. It has been a bad couple of weeks. My will power has been very weak, so now it is time to start doing it again. I have lost a pound, well, as of last week I had anyway. But this time I have something to really look forward to...Other than being healthy. I am going to Cancun with my mom in a year. I am totally stoked!!! I can't wait! i plan on spending a lot of time in a bathing suit, so I need to get my ass in gear!

Today went really well, I was swamped at work, so I didn't even have time to eat lunch. I made chili for supper and used deer and turkey, so it was very lean...Very yummy! I am very full, but that is okay. One meal for the day. I know you usually aren't supposed to do that, but hopefully I can keep my calories down and drop the weight!

Not doing very well!

Well, I haven't updated in a long time, probably because I haven't been doing very good of a job sticking to anything. I have actually gained 2 pounds. Pathetic. Today was decent. By the time I left work, I had only ate 685 calories, for supper I made mac and cheese and peas. I ate my servings of food and for some strange reason I got up and got some more mac and cheese. I took a couple of bites and then took my plate back into the kitchen and put he mac and cheese back in the pan and got a few more peas instead. I felt bad. I had been doing so well and then I was about to give it up. I was mad at myself!

This last week hasn't been very good. I finally started my "monthly friend" on Saturday and have felt huge and bloated ever since. Hopefully that gets better soon! I am so tired all of the time too! But I am hoping that I can start finding time to go to the gym soon. Plus, I am looking forward to tomorrow, I am getting my hair cut and colored. I am going for a totally new look. I hope it turns out well!

Well, off to bed I go. have a great night(if there is actually anyone out there)

It's been a Week

Well, it's been a week and I weighed in last night...I know I Know...I should have weighed in in the morning, but I forgot. Anyway...The bad news is that I didn't loose any weight, but the good news is that I didn't gain any weight. I am still at 241. I am getting ready to start my period, so I am hoping that next week I have some really good luck! We will see!

Day 3

Today SUCKED!!!! I am constantly hungry...CONSTANTLY!!!! I hate this. I actually think I am going to be starting my period soon. Maybe that is why. I have these little clementines here at the house and they are SO good. I read somewhere that they are what they call a negative calorie food, which means that it actually takes more calories to eat and digest them than they have in them, so I figure it is okay that I have had 4 in the last hour. They are just so tiny!!!

Today was like normal other than being hungry all the time.

For breakfast I had my regular bagel with cream cheese which this time I only used about half the cream cheese, so 140 calories. I had string cheese for a snack 80 calories. Lunch was a ham sandwich 380 calories and a clementine, 40 calories. That takes me to 640 calories. For supper we had my Mother and Father in law over. We grilled. Yes, I know what you are thinking...It is freezing out, but we actually grill all year round. I don't think our grill would know how to react if we actually covered it. One time it was like 4 degrees and we were out there grilling. It is kind of fun, it gives you that little taste of summer in the middle of the winter. Anyway, my hubby grilled pork steak fingers. I had 2 of those, a couple of doritos, baked beans and about 2 tablespoons of potato salad(my mother in law brought it and I didn't want to offend). I'm not sure how many calories that was, but I am sure that I am close to my goal of 1400 if not above it. Then this evening I had 4 of those wonderful little clementines. YUMMY!

Tomorrow I am going to visit my sister in law in Norfolk with my Mom. It will be a fun trip.

Pretty soon I am going to clue by brother in to what I am up to. I am going to ask him to be my personal trainer and my drill sergant. He will do wonderful. I am sure that I am going to hate him from time to time, but the end result will be a better me.

Have a good night....out!

Day 2

Today wasn't too bad. I had lunch with my cousin at the Hy-Vee. They have a really good salad bar and we thought that would be a good meal. It was great! I had a wonderful salad with a sun-dried tomato vinaigrette dressing. YUMMY!!!! My other foods today were:
small bagel with cream cheese 180 cal
2 manderin oranges 90 calories
string cheese 80 calories

Supper was my difficult spot today. We were invited over to a friends house for grilling out. They did sirloins, potatoes, green bean casserole and garlic toast. I did decent, but not wonderful. Tomorrow night my in-laws are coming over for supper and we are going to grill again... I am sure it will be another challenging night.

Well, i will update again tomorrow evening before bed. I hope everyone has a good night!